Waiting for my visa

Office....parents...friends...acquaintances.......tired of running around for people. For once, after many years I want to be alone......absolutely alone....there is something about nothingness that is alluring.....Where am I going? What is the purpose of my life? Who am I living my life for?Fame, name, love, recognition.........don't know.......Got everything but still feel empty. Jesus, what a feeling. Strange but true.