Monday, 19 May 2014

DREAMS ARE NOT DEFINED BY AGE/GENDER

Today, I watched the movie how old are you at Savitha. This I believe was just the apt movie for me, which came at the right moment. Truly inspirational.

All alone. Struggling. Only I knew the rut that I was going through. I could connect to the movie at different levels. Not the married/husband bit. But the rest of it. Like on the threshold of being 35 this year.

I guess you are never too old to dream. Dreams don't have an expiry date. Who decides the expiry date of a woman's dream?

I remember the time when I watched Three Idiots at El Dorado in Abu Dhabi with Nur. Motivated by the movie, i walked out of my job at UAE Exchange. Had called up the CEO Dr Shetty and had shared my disgust. All I wanted was a ticket back home, which he arranged the very next day. It was a cathartic experience. Leaving everything behind I flew back to India.

This time, again, I had to walk out. Walk out not of a job but out of someone's life. Have always been trying to ease other people's life but this time I cannot afford to hurt myself. Had to say enough is enough. No more running behind anyone. I cannot bear to see other people suffering and that has been my biggest weakness. Jesus, I let myself down. Bloody hell I have to get out of this trap. Nobody else is to be blamed. It's me!!! Vinu...Vinu...Vinu...Wake Up...Not Again...Get back on with your life. Please be back to your normal cheerful self.

Small life. We are gonna hit the grave. Why carry any grudges? My own words, I am giving to myself. And if you feel hurt, please don't hurt yourself. Time heals all the hurts. It won't be long when this person becomes insignificant...

Smile. Forgive, forget and move on!!!

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